Happy Birthday John!!

Every woman has her favorite actor, who usually doubles are her dream guy and is on her "list". Mine is John Cusack. I mean come on, he's perfect! Tall, trim, sweet, handsome, talented, down-to-earth, family-oriented, black belt in kickboxing, need I go on? I've seen almost all his movies, own a lot of them and everyone of them I'll watch, dreaming of being his leading lady.

Well, today is his 43rd birthday, so I just wanted to say a big Happy Birthday John!! Keep those wonderful movies coming and maybe one day, I'll get to meet you in person :)

28 Days

I saw an older Sandra Bullock movie last night, 28 Days. Sandra portrays a writer with an addiction to several 'poisons' but the most prominent was alcohol. She shows up to her sisters wedding drunk and ends up smashing the wedding cake and then after borrowing the limo, crashes it through the front window of a local living room. She's sentenced to 28 days of rehab, it's that or jail time. In that 28 days, she makes a complete turn around in her way of thinking (and living), overcoming some pretty rough days while she dries out. Naturally, it got me thinkng....

I'm not an addict of anything, well, at least not of anything illegal. I do have a problem with motivation though. That lack of motivation coupled with my ever-increasing age has lead to major poundage in the lower mid section. I'm now completely repulsed by my reflection and find myself scrambling to find something that covers up the buldge. I weighed myself tonight and almost fainted by what the scale said.....178 pounds! I haven't been this heavy in years! In a small defense, I will say that recently I have started eating several times a day since I have heard for years that when you rarely eat, you body goes into a starvation mode and tends to hang on to every calorie you consume. When you DO start eating normal amounts of food, you body, still believing it's got to hang onto every calorie DOES. The result? More weight and an increasing urge to eat, lol. Since I refuse to go out and buy bigger clothes to cover up the pooch and look uncomfortably stuffed into the clothes that I have now, something's GOT to change.

I'm giving myself an 28 day challenge......28 days, 28 minutes a day being very active and (hopefully) 28 pounds to shed. That will bring me down to an even 150, which for someone who's 5'10" is a good weight to reach. It also happens that '28' is my favorite number, so we shall see :)
Let the losing begin!!

Do Bears Bare? Do Bees Be?

Anyone who grew up during the 80's may remember this phrase, it was probably the first time you'd remember seeing the famous Bruce Willis and with a great head of hair! He and Cybil Shepard bantered back and forth every Monday night for several years in the popular tv series 'Moonlighting'. I was a huge fan of the show and recently, a favorite of my son's. We've been watching the tv series this week and boy has it brought back memories!

From the pilot episode, I was in love with Bruce Willis. He was footloose and fancy free, funny, caring and stubborn, lol He made me laugh all the time and I've never dropped him from my 'list'. Two main memories come back to me with Moonlighting.....a guy in my theatre class and a guy in band with me. The theatre guy and I were great friends and we both loved Moonlighting. We could bicker and banter back and forth at the same time (for fun) just like David and Maddie. We'd always end simultaniously, both saying "Understand?.....GOOD!" lol

The guy from band was like David in the way that his family's 'class' and mine were way different. He came from 'the wrong side of the tracks' and even though my parents were always very accepting of others no matter what, this guy made them hold certain reservations. For the longest time, I thought he hated me. He picked on my, made fun of me and made my first year or two pure hell at that school. Then it came to pass that he actually really liked me and we ended up being really good friends.

Lots of memories come up simply by watching an old tv show. Not only is it still entertaining, but it will always have an extra specialness for me.....memories :)

Lockdown

I have voluntarily put my heart on lockdown. Solitary confinement for an indefinate period of time. After the break up of my last boyfriend, and the dust of anger had settled, I still clung onto the hope that we had a future together and that he would come to see that. Of course, I did that with my ex-husband and instead of wanting me back, he just went out and married someone else. It was a crushing blow to know that you weren't worth it. Well, it's happened again (he didn't get married, but came to the conclusion that saying goodbye was the answer). It hurts, quite a bit in fact, but what can you do aside from duct tape him to a chair? They say that 3rd times a charm, I say I'm just setting myself up again. I even deleted the personal ads I had online, I need to take a break and heal. Either way, I'm too old for babies, to average to be arm candy and have little to offer anyone, so why wear out what's left of my heart on short-term relationships? I don't need anyone to help me pick out movies or to eat out with me, I can do those things by myself, have been for years. Vacations? Been there done THAT myself too. Would be nice to share that experience sure, but I'm perfectly capable of doing it alone. I buy my own flowers, treat myself to little items to show how thoughtful I am and enjoy taking myself out for a margarita anytime I want. The best part is that I won't ever wake up to me telling myself "It's over, I'll leaving". See? I'll be just fine. Now, Me, Myself and I are going to go start planning our vacation.....